Stone butch blues

"I don't know, Duffy. This hope thing is kind of new for me. I'm a little afraid to get my hopes up too much at once."

"I'm not saying we'll live to see some kind of paradise. But just fighting for change makes you stronger. Not hoping for anything will kill you for sure. Take a chance, Jess. You're already wondering if the world could change. Try imagining a world worth living in, and then ask yourself if that isn't worth fighting for. You've come too far to give up on hope, Jess."

The final exchange between Duffy and Jess sums up the heart of what's at stake for Jess and folks like her who live on the margins of society. It also reminds me of a famous Buffy The Vampire Slayer aphorism, "Strong is fighting". There's no fighting without hope and though favourable outcomes are never guaranteed, the ability to dream of a better future and taking action to spark change is what makes survival possible. Every fellow butch, ally, lover, mentor, friend Jess meets lends her strength for her slow, excruciating and relentless path toward finding herself and her people. It's only hope that lets Jess build and rebuild each time her world crumbles, it's hope that lets her find where she belongs.

Stone Butch Blues is a love story about learning to see many forms of uncommon beauty, from the raw tenacity of tough-as-nails single-parent working mums, to tender but tough butch-for-butch lovers, to transfemmes who have gone through great sacrifice to become who they are. It's an elegy for those who have been lost to hatred, oppression and suffering -- whether that loss is monumental but momentary, like when Jess and her friends are grievously wounded by the police and can't go to the hospital, or permanent in the case of those who ended their lives out of despair and certainty that a better world will never be. It's also an atlas of sorts for people who find themselves adrift in a sea of labels and hard lines, who have a difficult time finding the language to describe who they are.

Though Stone Butch Blues has been out in the world for more than 20 years now, it remains a timeless treasure trove of vocabulary and stories for chronic misfits, gender outlaws and anybody who's had to struggle to become or belong.